Cupcake Vs Carrot

Ugh. So here we are again, another New Years Eve. I enjoy yet hate New Years because it reminds me of half the things I said I'd do last year, but clearly didn't do yet. The FH is at work till 6, and I think we're just going to have a quiet evening in, because that's how we are.

We went on a mega clean-a-thon the last few days and the place is actually looking pretty good. We sorted through boxes, through out about 8 bags of garbage, gave away 5 boxes and a bag to Sally Ann and just re-organized our stuff. We actually have some space left over, it's nuts!

We're going to try a meal plan for the new year as well, so we spent yesterday pouring over recipe books and finding tasty things. I picked up The Biggest Loser Jump start, so we're taking a lot out of there. We made this absolutely tasty Ham/Cheese/Egg muffin thing this morning, so I felt like I was eating fast food, but it was way better! We've had the last few days off together, so we made a conscious effort not to eat out, and to make something healthy. Yesterday we made this low cal chocolate monkey oatmeal, which was awesome! You'd think it would be bad for you, but made right..nope!

I am excited, yet scared for the new year. I'm getting married in 7 months. I need to plan more stuff, and get it in place, I'm just feeling so overwhelmed by it all. We went to Moores and got the tuxes picked out, and I'm going to go to Safeway and book the flowers soon. I just don't even know what else I need. This sense of panic plus the fact that I'm back to school on Tuesday, have another practicum in March, need to get un-fat..it's going to be tough. I always find I get really frustrated and overwhelmed then just shut down and binge on everything, like food, sleep, booze, you name it. I really need to find a better method.

Goal today: Get lazy butt on the Wii Fit.

I had no idea how bad moving is for you! My FH and I moved out of our 1 bedroom little apartment last Friday, in the pouring rain. The old place didn't have an elevator, so my legs/arms got a good work out hauling boxes downstairs. But we ordered pizza/bought beer for the moving crew..not one...but both days! So I sat there, and ate my face off! Ack! We didn't have any other food around, especially nothing healthy like fruits or veggies. We went into "eat the freezer/fridge up" mode a week before the move, so we're down to frozen perogies, soup and chips. Not such a good idea hey?

The extra sucky thing is that the new place is a disaster! The old tenants had lived there for over 15yrs, were smokers and never told the land lord when things were broken. So we're left with a stained, cigarette burned carpet, water damaged holy and stinky walls, wrecked base boards, electrical outlets that either don't work or were shorted out, and a multitude of other things. Needless to say, my enthusiasm for healthy living was kicked down a few notches by how awful the place looks. I tried to set up my Wii Fit..but I can't find the nun chuck...or the TV remote.

One cool thing I did find though was this EA Active 30 Day Challenge. Its similar to Wii Fit, but more realistic. Apparently its had some results...which I guess is good. It's $64.99 for the package so I think it'll have to wait until the next pay day, but it might be worth it. Interactive things like that seem to hold my attention better than slaving away by myself.

I did however jump on the elliptical this morning for 20 minutes. Now to all you seasoned work out buffs out there, yes I know, that's not long. But a few weeks ago I could barely make 5 minutes without huffing and puffing. So I must be doing something right.

I think a big part of this "healthy me" isn't just the food, or the workouts. It's my whole life. I need to cleanse out the bad before I can really enjoy my results. My goal for today is to clean out a ton of my room, go drop off some old outdated clothes at Goodwill, and maybe do some dusting. I sadly work at 5am tomorrow...so it won't be a late night.

Adios!

Man I am really not jumping on this as much as I should be. Working full time is killing my healthy buzz! I work at a mini Wal Mart style store, so we have everything under the sun for tasty treats. Plus when I don't feel like cooking, I usually hit the food court for some sushi or Subway. I honestly don't think Subway is as healthy for you as they like to say they are. I mean, the bread is huge and gummy, the chicken always tastes weird and processed..but man do I love it anyways. Why? Not too sure.

I slipped and fell at work today. I was trying to bring out an end table for a customer to look at, then I slipped on a folding chair that fell out. So I dive bombed myself, twisted my already bad knee and bruised my hip and arm. I am quite the walking disaster. This is one of the reasons I haven't been able to exercise a lot. I hurt my knee pretty badly a few years ago, to the point where I was bed ridden. So naturally I gained a ton of weight, and it didn't really come off. I was upset, and unable to walk and I admit it- I turned to junk food. Not a good way to go. I really need to find a new comfort food.

Ok so I'm thinking I need to chronicle my weight loss/struggles/insane wedding stress. I was doing so well..before student teaching started up for this year. I was hitting the gym, had stopped drinking pop at work, stopped the merciless drive thru runs. But then I fell off the band wagon. Now I'm hitting up McDonalds for the morning Ice Coffee and chugging Coke on my breaks at work.

I'm a year and a few weeks away from being married, and I'm not happy with the way I am. I wake up, and clothes that were starting to be loose are now tight again, and that's depressing. One of my big problems is the emotional eating. I have a bad day, and I buy a bag of chips. If a customer got under my skin I'd buy a fancy chocolate bar and eat it away. If I suffered from the sadly frequent bouts of random depression a Quarter Pounder was my first stop.

I need to stop giving into the cravings. I need to start making the smart desisions. I'm hoping this blog helps to keep me on track.

I guess the first thing I need to do is set a goal. Or goals.

I weigh 220 right now. By the end of the summer I want to have dropped 10 pounds. That's not so crazy is it?

Short term...

No more soda. No more impromptu fast food drive thru runs. MORE WATER.

Ok. I can do this. I think I can take care of the no pop thing. I'm hoping tea can be an acceptable substitute :P Because I am quite the tea whore!

Ok internet, here I go.